my crush

Do you have a crush on someone?

are you in love with someone?

when are you going to have a gf?

these three questions are the same questions that my friends keep asking me whenever i meet them. i keep telling them that 'yes i have a crush on someone and she is really cute'
'yes..I'm in love with someone because she is cute'
and the hardest part 'when? wait until i drive a bmw then..i can say when..:P'

the truth is...do i really have a crush and in love with someone??
hehehe..i do...so tonight..I'm going to write about the one that I've fallen in love with..:)

the first question..who is this girl?
well...she is a friend of mine...she is the cutest girl that I've ever met in my entire life.
the way she smiles just blow me away.
she is very special to me

what is so special about her?
regardless of her smile...the way she makes me laugh is the most special part about her.
do you think it is easy to make someone laugh..
it needs sincerity and a good sense of humour in order for you to make someone laugh.
and you know what...she is the one who manage to do that.

why don't you ask her to be your gf?
answering a question is far way harder than asking one...if i have the chance...i will definitely make steps to get her but....
her situation fail me down..
she already has someone else
aawwwww....:((
so...again..i fail...:(

haissh..

i want you..

MISS U:

I miss the way you talk to me.

I miss the way you laugh. the sound of your voice when you giggles.

I miss the way you hold my hands. you hold them so tightly until my hands become sweaty.

I miss the way you wrinkles your nose every time you laugh.

I miss the way you touch me. the way you touch me makes me love you even more.

I miss everything about you.

love,
Fad.

mungkin esk.....

i have a feeling that I'm not going to have any gf for a quite long time...i think that I'm not ready yet..to be in a relationship is not easy..you need to be fully prepared mentally and physically. sometime, i really envy people who has been in a relationship for years..wow!!
that is awesome..i have some of my friends who are in a relationship with their partners for 5 to 7 years!!
PERH!!...i cant even last for a year with my exes..how come they can be together for that long?do they get bored?..even married people don't last that long..:P
people who are managed to do that are superb..i always ask myself..if one day...i have a girl in my life..am i going to be with her forever?or just for a few months...
if it just for a few months..."takde gune la"..
that worries me the most...I'm a fragile guy...heart breaking moment is something that i really really want to avoid..I've had enough..
so...wait fad...just wait...sabar....mybe tomorrow...or luse...or maybe otw to klas dlm bas tiba2 terlanggar die and her books jatuh...i try to help her..pastu tepegang tangan...she looks at me and smile...malu2...omg!!
i hope it happens to me someday...hahaha

the one

lately..I'm kinda bored doing nothing at home so, i ended up watching TV all the time...TV is my new best friend..not my cell phone anymore..;P hehehe
having a new BF makes me realise that, I've learned a lot by just 'watching' him..,seriously..if you spend your entire day watching TV...you will know a lot..hahahha

the things that i like the most about him is that he teaches me a lot about live...after watching 'the one' from hallmark channel..it just make me realised that..you just need to keep trying and trying in finding love...because 'the one' for you is still out there..waiting for you to find her..:))...this story is about a chef,Adam... who has fallen in love with his friend,sally..he always tell to his guy friend,Charles that she is the one for him...the one that he will spend his life with...one day, Adam got a bad news that his crush was getting married to another guy...he was so shocked...knowing the fact that sally was getting married...Adam decided to back off and forget about sally...unfortunately...no one in this world can kill 'love'...

when sally found out that Adam had fallen in love with her...sally told Adam that she felt the same way as him...on the wedding day, Adam made a brave move by objecting sally's wedding and told her how much he love and care about her...he said 'the first time I've met you,i just knew that you are the one for me..loving you is like eating Eclairs, you will smile whenever you eat it, and how it melts your heart whenever the chocolate triggers your taste buds..hoping that it stays like that for the rest of your life...that is the reason why...i love you so much'...and as usual the hero and heroin will kiss during the end...:P

so...i will not quit when it comes to love...i will find you..don't worry..:))

now i knw what love is

At last...i have found the true meaning of love...after watching 'A Beautiful Mind'...I've just realised that love is all about sacrifices. When John Forbes Nash Jr. (Russel Crowe) has been diagnosed of having a disease called schizo (a person who cannot differentiate between the reality and fantasy) his wife, Alicia Nash (Jennifer Connelly) sacrifices her life for the one that she loves the most. She never stop believing on her husband. She keeps giving support and try to convince Nash about the reality that he is facing right now. He loses his job, his reputation and his sanctity but still, she always by his side continuously supporting her lover to the fullest.



In 1994, John Forbes Nash Jr. has received the Nobel Memorial Prize in economic for his revolutionary work in game theory. In his speech, he says "what truly is logic?what decides reason? my quest has taken me to the physical, the metaphysical, the delusional and back. I have made the most important discovery of my career-the most important discovery of my life. it is only in the mysterious equations of love that any logic or reason can happen. I'm here tonight because of you. you are the only reason i am. you are all my reasons. Thank you"


watching that movie just make me realised that, sacrificing your life for someone that you love is the act of a holy man. it is undeniable that sacrifices need a lot of guts, bravery and sincerity. without them, don't you ever dare to call yourself as 'a guy who has fallen in love'. find them first, once you've found them...then you can tell everyone that you have found your true love.:)

MEMORIES

1 Intan, 2 Intan, 3 Nilam, 4 Intan, 5 Intan, 6 Intan/Mutiara (Sekolah Rantau Petronas 97/02)
1 B, 2 A, 3 C, 4 C, 5B (Sekolah Sains Dungun 03/07)
11 years of our life are filled with memories...I think everyone still remembers their school days. Same goes to me...:)
those days sure was fun...if there was a time machine, i want to go back in time where i could be a kid again..a kid who knew how to have fun..who loved to mingle around with all the 'budak kampung'..playing football, stealing Pok Stopa's (Pak Mustafa in trenganu) 'jambu merah' and the best part was..when for an expedition..with '5 sekawan bdk kemasek'...for a long ride through the woods until we reached awana kijal...(it was far ok!!) we even bought cendol bungkus and a few packets of super ring for 'bekal'!!hahaha

The majority of people living in kemasek are fishermen..they don't earn much..i think the poorest between us are Abu and Ali..they dont even have a toilet and a tv!! (they have a telaga in front of their house but i dont know how diorng berak)..during that time,we loved to watch 'power rangers'...A LOT!!... for those of you who havent watched them...tak tau nak ckp pe..takder childhood :p...Abu and Ali will come to my house to watch that programme every saturday at 6pm...there were no boundaries between us when we're kids...it doesn't matter if you are rich or poor...what matter the most is your friendship...:) I love having them in my life..

unfortunately....when we are getting older...our friendship are getting weaker and weaker...we haven't met for 8 years already...i dont know what happen to Abu and Ali now (sumpah!! these are their real name and they are brothers), the last time i meet them when i was getting ready to go to sekolah asrama in dungun...and after that...no more...:((
i hope they are doing fine now...:)) childhood memories are something that are hard to forget..I hope i will remember them for the rest of my life...

falling to pieces

life is not as easy as u think it is. especially when it comes to love. L.O.V.E. what do you understand about love?
if you ask me, until now i still cant find my love.it shows that i dont understand love very well!!hahahahaha.
people told me that u only have to wait. when it is about time, your love will come. i believe that each n every one of us has what we call in malay as 'jodoh'.
yup, sooner or later i will have one. the question is when?

each and every person finds their love in a variety of ways. some find love through 'love from the first sight', and some of them find their love through internet, friends and etc.
in my blog, i will tell you my history of falling in love. i hope u will enjoy reading this..:)